When the words in your head are so mixed up,
The world around you keeps spinning, damn what was said?
Curled up in a ball replaying the things you said,
Changed who I was while I couldn’t even get out of bed,
Said you loved me then brutally destroyed me,
Always find my way to a toxic man, not sure why I’m so blind,
Fake smiles, phony laughs, they see right through me into my insecurities,
Words in piles trying to escape my mouth but I can’t breathe and it’s unbearable,
Feels like I’m panicking but my body is still, can’t move or let these words go,
I write all the time, but these words replay on repeat like a terrible soundtrack,
Just say it god damn it, let go of all that hate that fills you with nonsense,
You’re not your past, so forget it and take a step forward,
Stop being a coward, he can’t hurt you anymore,
Stuck in my own brain filled with pain and self-hate,
Remember those days when smiling came naturally and not forced and fake,
The girl who’s eyes sparkled whenever she laughed,
You made me believe I was nothing, a waste of space,
How do you rid that type of pain from a brain that’s trapped in fear?
I have not a single tear left to cry, you will soon have your time,
I am brave, I am bruised, I am who I was meant to be,
In time you’ll see those words won’t haunt my dreams.